Most of you have probably already figured this out, I am slower than most. It has taken me 41 years and a couple months to comprehend the magnitude of accumulated effect. In other words, it has taken me 41 years and a couple months to do something other than stand at the starting line, flail, jump up and down, and wonder how am I going to get to the finish line? Baby steps. Start small. Set achievable goals. Yes? Yes; but, I think it goes deeper than that.
What am I doing in this scenario? I am standing at the starting line, flailing, jumping up and down while wondering how am I ever going to get to the finish line. If I listen more closely to that small voice, it asks me why start on something I may never accomplish? Why waste my time when so many other things can be done? So, in other words, I am sabotaging myself with these thoughts, and by not putting in the effort to make my goal happen.
As it turns out, personal power is a good thing. It serves the individual well, and equally so, those around him or her. As Dr. Robert Stephenson describes in The Ethics of Interpersonal Relationships (2009), there “is a clear distinction between positive power and negative power. Personal power is based on strength, confidence, and competence.” He further goes on to explain that when it is “externalized it manifests in things such as generosity, creativity, and good will. Its primary aim is mastery of self, not others.”
Dilution of personal power and attachments remind me of aparigraha. It is a Sanskrit word meaning non-attachment, non-possessiveness. It calls for a letting go of whatever the individual is holding onto. It is a favorite of mine. I first learned of aparigraha about six years ago. A yoga instructor mentioned it in a class I was attending. I don’t recall the context; but, I’ve heard alot of Sanskrit words and that one stuck with me. A letting go, a non-clinging, non-possesive call to action. I believe the reason it stuck with me is because although I’ve made progress in this area, I still have a lifetime more to do. And, that is ok.
It was a toss-up today between banana bread and roasted apples. I am a big fan of both. But, if I had to pick one, it would be banana bread. You can’t beat it in the morning with a mug of coffee. I’ve made banana bread lots of different ways. I’ve made it with all flour, no oatmeal. I’ve tried fewer bananas, no nuts. Below is one of my favorite ways to make it. It ends up being quite dense with loads of flavor. This is not a sweet bread. Serve with honey if desired.
Banana Bread with Oats and Wheat Bran
1 1/3 c. whole wheat flour
1 1/ 3 c. old fashioned oats
1/4 c. wheat bran
1 t. baking powder (preferably aluminum free)
1 t. baking soda
1 1/2 t. ground cinnamon
1/2 t. nutmeg
1/4 t. allspice (optional)
pinch of salt
3 ripe bananas, peeled, mashed, set aside
1/3 c. brown sugar
1/3 c. sugar
1/4 c. (scant) vegetable oil
1/4 c. chopped walnuts (optional)
- Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Butter a loaf pan. Set aside. In a medium size mixing bowl, peel and mash bananas, set aside.
- In another medium size mixing bowl, combine the flour through the salt. With either a hand held mixer, or a whisk, combine sugars and banana mash. Mix until well combined. Add eggs and oil. Mix until well combined.
- Add the wet ingredients to the dry flour mixture. Mix until combined. Fold in walnuts.
- Pour the batter into the buttered loaf pan. Bake at 350 degrees for 55 – 60 minutes until a toothpick or knife inserted comes out clean and the top of the loaf is golden brown. Let cool on wire rack for 10 minutes. Turn out loaf to cool further.